Time, Art & Eros

Time-rebels.

Rome, 3 september 2006

By Joke J. Hermsen


Let me start with a quotation from The Waves by Virginia Woolf, a few sentences which I will repeat at the end of my talk, hoping that the few remarks on the subject of time and memory that I will make in between, will render these sentences even more truthful and beautiful then they already are.

`I begin now to forget; I begin to doubt the fixity of tables, the reality of here and now¼ And now I ask: who am I? I have been talking of bernard, neville, Jinny, Susan, Rhoda and Louis. Am I all of them? Am I one and disticnt. There is no division between me and them. As I talked I felt I am you. This identity we so feverishly cherish, was overcome. (...)
` I have to recall things gone far, gone deep, sunk into this life and become part of it; dreams too, things surrounding me, and the inmates, those half-articulated ghosts who keep up their hauntings by day and night; who turn over in their sleep, who utter their confused cries, who put out their phantom fingers and clutch at me as I try to escape - shadwos of people one might have been; unborn selves. (...)
` I have done with phrases. How much better is silence. How much better to sit by muself like the solitary sea-bird, that opens its wings on the stake. let me sit here for ever with bare things, this coffee-cup, this knife, this fork, things in themselves, myself being myself. Do not come and worry me with your hints that it is time to shut the shop and be gone. I would willingly give all my monney that you should not disturb me but will me sit on and on, silent, alone.'

Now, obviously the character in this fragment is looking feverishly for another time, another consciousness, another way of being. What could that mean? And: what’s in fact the matter with time, in this time & age? The more time-saving machines we have developed dring the last 100 years, the less time we seem to have. The quicker we can go from A to B, the less time we have left to spend some quiet moments in B. The Western world has started a race against time, and time itself has become our greatest ennemy. Time has become something that should be fully controlled, utilized, made the most of, every tiny minute of it, there really is no more time to lose, while every lost hour seems to be an assault on our economy, productivity, even on our identity. Moreover, the traces time have left on us, should be wiped out immediatly. There is hardly any respect left for the passage, the expiration of time, for elderness; young and new have the future. Which ofcourse is good for the economy; the pharmaceutic and beauty industries make a fortune out of this fear of time. As if we no longer wish to be remembered of time itself. As if we no longer relate to our own time, but are controlled completely by a socio-economic time-regime.

Time is more then ever, money and money is business. Time is the Big Brother of Wall street, who is watching us continuously. Idleness has never been so much the parent of vice. Who in the Western world still dares to do nothing, absolutely nothing for some longer time? Who is still able to live without an agenda? Who still realizes that time is on the one hand nothing more then an artificial agreement to structure society? And who remembers, on the other hand, as the medieval philospher Augustine said, that time is `nothing more than an expansion of our own soul, because the only truthful time measure relies in our self. Who still thinks, while rushing from one appointment, one airport to the other, looking desperatly at all kind of clocks and watches and always pursued by a terrible lack of time - while time has become the scarcity-product number one - who still thinks of the words of Augustinus: `In Though, my soul, I measure time. It is me myself I measure when I measure time.'
Very few of us. While time no longer belongs to us. Time has indeed become one of the most powerful weapons of capitalist society. It has in fact stolen our time from us. It forces us to believe there is only one time left: the lineair time of productivity, efficiency, rentability, and so on. And threatens us which the idee fixe of a constant lack of time. While pressing the idea of scarcity of time, it makes us believe we should not lose any minute of it. We are running after time, and time runs after us. We have forgotten that there is another timedimension, an internal one, the time of our soul, the one Virginia Woolf describes for us in all of her works.

What I will try to show here today is that there are at least two-dimensions. The time of society, of lineairity, of history, of economy and law, and a dimension of time which is far more difficult to describe, since it expresses something of our most singular subjectivity. What I will try to do, is in fact nothing more and nothing less then another recherche du temps perdu. That there does exist such an other dimension of time, is easy to prove. Hardly anyone experiences time the same as the other. What seems to be endlessly long for one, can be experienced as quickly over for an other. Let us therefore examine more closely these two layers of time, which correspond, in my view, to two layers of subjectivity.

There are escape-routes from time as the Big Brother of western society.
There are experiences which resist this economic time-regime.
There are still moments we forget our agenda's, we forget this lineair dimension of time, we even forget to check our watches.
Eros is such a time-rebel, I believe.
Art, creativity and other forms of deep concentration are other examples of time-rebels.
They call from another time-dimension, they do not simply dissapear from time, although that might be our experience, they simply withdraw themselves from time as Big Brother. Agenda's do no longer seem to be important, the ratrace against time simply ceases to exist, status, money, carreer, power, it all seems to be rather useless and unimportant.
At these time-rebellion moments it seems that through the horizontal ax of time, another dimension of time breaks in, which creates a space of liberty, an intermezzo, an in between, where some other way of being, of attention, of thinking is possible. As if we could grasp there behind the strong walls of our identity. A place difficult to describe, since the words we use do not seem to be able to express what happens there exactly. It is a rather spooky place, phantomlike, a time favorite for lovers, writers and artists.

In Virginia Woolfs works for instance the time of clocks is often juxtaposed with the time of `the wild horse within us', as Genevieve Lloyd points out in her book Being in time. She discusses the exploitation in Mrs. Dalloway of the ressources of fiction to communciate the `subtle variations between the time of selfconsiousness and chronological time.' In this novel Woolf paints the contrasts between mortal and monumental time, the weaving together of the world of action and the world of introspection, of the time of the clocks and the time of inner consciousness. The different characters in the novel meet in the same places at the same time, but experience this all very differently. Woolf captures for us the passing of what we might call internal time, in a way reminiscent of Augustine's `distension of soul.' In her later novels we see the full maturity of Woolf's engagement with issues of self-consiousness and time. She often uses techniques of multiple perspectives to explore the ways in which consiousness collectively constitute a common world of objects and the co-existence of that shared reality with the isolation of individual consciousness. The voices in her novels show how each individual experiences time, space, life, the world and the people who live it, in a very different, highly singular way. She also pictures characters who are able to `sink down, deep, into what passes', like Bernard, the writer in The Waves. The surface of Bernards mind `slips along like a pale-grey stream reflecting what passes. Beneath individual consciousness there are `profound depths to be explored - to hear vague, ancestral sounds of boughs creaking,to indulge impossible desires to embrace the whole world with the arms of understanding - impossible to those who act. And also impossible to the chronological time of action.

There are of course many more literary examples of the quest of internal time, or of the recherche du temps perdu. Proust ofcourse, as he wrote: `from ourselves comes only that which we drag forth from the obscurity which lies within us, that which to others is unknown.' For Proust, writing takes us into the depths of the self, writing is a possibilty to rediscover internal time, the lost time, which is not only the time past, but much more then that. `A moment of the past, did I say? Was it not perhaps very much more; something that, common both to the past and to the present, is much more essential than either of them?' This coming together of past and present, as Genevieve Lloyd points out, is also a coming together of perception and imagination. It allows the mind to imagine what is already present for a moment brief as a flash of lightning - what normally it never apprehends: a fragment of time in the pure state. Turning away from world to self, spiritualizing things by transforming them into their internal non-material equivalents is cenyral to Proust idea of art. Things, as soon as we have perceived them, are transformed intto `something of the same nature as all our preoccupations and sensations of that particular time, with wich, indissolubly, they blend.' It is a defect of realism, Proust suggests, that it severs all links of the present with the past and future by ignoring this double character which is a feature of all our impressions. Since we always live two different times, as we will see later, we are always at the least two in one.

I would say that every writer is constantly trying to unblock this internal time-space. Which is no easy job, I can tell you. No eays job, because it demands from us another way of being, another kind of attention, lots of waiting and doing nothing, absolutely nothing and therefore a constant battle with the dominant time-law. No easy job indeed, because this internal time tends to withdrawn itself from our possibility to grasp it, to put it into words, to make it less phantomlike, less ephemere.

But yet we see this other time appearing, again and again, in so many works of art, like a ghost wandering through literature and also through contemporaray western philosophy for that matter. I believe there is a connection between this other time-experience and a more philosophical quest for `the other in the I', which is sometimes called the principle of alterity, in the terms of Levinas, or other concepts like for instance the nomad of Deleuze, who doesn't follow the socio-symbolic laws of time, but tries to create his own time-fugative. In the domain of literature we find a lot of such ghostly characters like for instance the mermaid Undine in Ingeborg Bachmanns story Undine geht (1961) or the nameless, female I from her novel Malina (1971). We can also think of the characters in Samuel Beckettes trilogie, Moloy, Malone and the Unnamable from 1959. All these different authors insist upon the undescribable and elusive character of their phantomlike figures. But why is that? What's the use of getting spooky again? I would like to show here today that the philosophical and literary desire to think an ungraspable, indeterminable and unsayable time-dimension within subjectivity is a way to transcend Western obsession with identity, to overcome Western fear for otherness, to rebel against capitalist society and to prepare a way of thinking that permits us to develop the notion of difference and create a much more plurifmorme notion of subjectivity.

Due to idealogical crises, we no longer are willing to read blue-prints of a radical other world, where everything whould be better then here. We have somehow become to dissapointed with radical political ideologies in order to be able to be willing to believe another utopian fairy-tale. But this doensn't mean that the desire for change has dissapeared nor that we wish no longer to fight the bourgeois ideology of western society. Only, our struggle has become a more individual one, trying to resist the demands of making monney, claiming our own time, developing a less static notion of subjectivity.

It is in fact such highly personal struggles with time, consiousness and subjectivity we witness in many works of literature and art. Since `the borders of my language design the borders of my world', as Ingeborg Bachmann puts it, a change in language could mean a change of the world. The subject is above all a speaking subject, in fact his or her subjectivity is founded in language. But what we are able to say, to express, depends upon the structures of society. If there is no more time left to think, to wait, to do nothing, since everything has to been done quicker and quicker every day, out of this constant fear of loss of effectivity or productivity, this other way of being, is threatened. It becomes more difficult to discover and develop an internal time and from that a possibility to express ourselves. We will start to speak and write and act like anybody else. We will all become the same. Pluriformity, the very basis of humananity, acoording to Hannah Arendt, will dissapear. Therefore it is so important to become time-rebels, to make differences, to make distinctions between a more general structure of time and identity, the things we share with others, and the more hidden structures of our own time and selfhood.

In literature and also in contemporary French philosophy we encounter all kinds of different attempts to think such a double-bind subjectivity and double-bind experience of time. The literary characters authors like Virginia Woolf, or Ingeborg Bachmann or Samuel Beckett invented, their elusiv and indeterminable character and their poetic, hesitant and murmuring language, could be read as a first attempt to deconstruct the one-dimensional logic of western thought on time, which focuses upon identity. These characters such as Malina, Malone, Molly or Undine manifest themselves as disturbing factors, while dismantling their false identities, but they remain more or less ghostly characters, since they are reluctant to create yet a new identity for themselves. That makes them into wandering, nomadic creatures, searching for a new subjectivity, without really pronouncing one.

Bachmann's Undine comes from another un-derwater world, she speaks another language, has other plans then ordinary human beings, or better no plans or projects at all. She looks from another world to the dominant patriarchal order. Undine is a rebel, a subversif character that complains about the cruel principles of use and profit that dominates our western world. She struggles against Big Brother of Time that keeps her own story away from her. She is an outcast, a vagabonde, she lives without a roof above her head and without any laws. Undine is an outsider to the human social order and must always return to the realm of the water, where she may find herself. She is a non-intentional creature, that does not want to controll the world or enlarge her power over the other. She lives in another time and space dimension. She goes under water, because she refuses to let herself be identified in a language and a way of thinking that is not her own.

According to the russian writer and philosopher Lou Andreas- Salomé, eros and art open up the rich dimension of this hidden underwater world within every subject. We are, in other words, all mermaids. The land of our early childhood, have sunken into the deepest layers of our subconsciousness, has become our hidden Atlantis, as Peter Sloterdijk calls it in his work Spharen, it’s the land we had to leave in order to grow up. In this land, the young child wasn’t yet seperated from the other, because it has not yet developed an I which isolates him or herself from the surrounding world. It doesn't say `I' and is not yet defined by the subject-object, I-other, man-woman or any other opposite. Growing up, this pluralistic and unconscious self will dissapear more and more under the surface of a conscious identity, it goes so to say like Undine under water, but will still accompany more or less the subjects existence. The Nomadic Self can in this perspective be seen as the pre-history of the speaking subject. And because it is a pre-verbal pre-history, we can not remember it voluntarily, we can not define it, we can not tell this story within the ontological framework of our language. But this doesn't mean that it is gone or lost forever.
It was Salomé's conviction that this repressed narcissistic self, can resurface thanks to the dynamics of Eros or to the inspiration of creative work. It then offers a possibility to transcend the narrow borders of our identity and re-interprete the story of our `I'.

The literary examples I have given today express the same need to describe a kind of double, twofold dimension of time and subjectivity. There is on the one hand chronological time which accompagnies the clear, conscious story of our identity, in fact the sum of what Heiddegger calls facticity, the facts that describe our existence. On the other hand there is this vague notion of an internal, highly personal time, which accompagnies the more unconscious and pre-binary story of our subjectivity; it can not express itself directly, but it undermines, interrrupts or disturbes the clear, consious story of identity. Therefore it enables us to change, since it refers to a dimension within subjectivity that is pure possibility, that has not yet been divided or reduced to the symbolic and ontological framwork of being. It helps us to remember that we are not autonomous and closed identities; we are in fact always more then we think we are, since this other story swimms so to say under the surface of our identity. We are, in other words, always and also mermaids.
This double edged character of time and subjectivity implies the existence of a distance, a creative space between these two layers of our subjectivity, between Time as Big Brother and time as the expression of our soul, between the clear facts of our identity, race, sex, age, class, culture etcetera ans the dark sides of the inner self. What we can learn form all this, is in fact rather simple. We are allways at least two: our I and the other in the I and we live at least two times, the socio-symbolic one and a very personal one. This last time-experience remembers us that we always carry an invisible `surplus', without knowing exactly what this surplus contains. We are never but one, closed entity, but open, unclosed entites; this means we can never be reduced to the sum of our factual identity - whether this concerns our sex, our colour, our age, class or whatever, but that there is always a certain distance towards this identity, because of the space which exists between the two time-dimensions, the two narratives of our subjectivity. It is this distance between these two dimensions which enables us to continiously re-interprete our existence.
Within the context of sexual difference, this means for instance that we understand sexual difference no longer as a notion that describes a factually determinable difference between man and woman, but as a process that is a never fixed and ever changing relationship which each one can have to one's identity. Men and woman can no longer be seen as fixed opposites of each other, but as never closed identities who constantly re-interprete the conditions for their beinig a woman or being a man. The twofoldness of our subjectivity, its fundamentel ambiguity, its movement of oscillation between the story of our sexual or other identity and that of our self, nomade, undine or the principle of alterity - makes only possible that we can consider ourselves as always becoming or changing subjects.

What we shoud not forget in these days of absolute victory of capitalism is that totalitarian politics are always identity-politics; they tell one and the same story. Not only of each person's identity but also of that of the group. They do not permit the idea of a surplus, an uncontrollable, unique otherness, they do not accept another time-dimension, which is highly singlar and subjective, they therefore dismmiss the possibility of a reinterpretation of one's own identity; in doing so they transform humanity as a principle of change and development into an immobil and controllable principle. Capitalism wants to make people believe that all they have to be concerned about is making monney and that they suffer from a terrible lack of time. The result of that mechanisme is the creation of slaves, who consider themselves as total adherents of the proclaimed collectif identity. They do no longer believe they might have a voice, a time of their own. This voice is burried so deeply, that they can hardly hear it any more.

Awareness of this other voice haunts the works of a lot of literary authors. Like the `unnamable' in Samuel Becketts trilogy, who claims`Here is my only elsewhere. (...) If I could only describe this place, I who am so good at describing places, they are my specialty, doors, windows, what haven't I imagined in the way of windows in the course of my career, some opened on the sea (...) If I could describe this place, I'd listen to its echo, I'd get to know it, I'd get to remember it, I'd be home, if I could describe this place, portray it, I've tried, I feel no place, no place around me, there's no end to me, I don't know what it is, it doesn't end, it's like air... (1957:367) (...)
I hear someone calling me, it begins again, that must be how it goes, if I did have a memory. Have they forgotten me? No, yes, no, someone calls me, I crawl out again, what is it, a little whole in the wilderness. I couldn't speak of me, I was never told I had to speak of me. I was alone, in a place where no voice could reach me. (...)
There is no name for me, no pronoun for me, all the trouble comes from that, our concern is with something, yes now we're getting it, someone or something that is not there, or that is not anywhere, or that is there, here, why not, after all, and our concern is with speaking of that, now we've got it, you don't know why, why you must speak of that, but there it is, you can't speak of that, no one can speak of that. I know it's not I, that's all I know¼I'll go on, you must say words, as long as there are any, untill they find me, untill they say me, strange pain, strange sin, you must go on, perhaps it's done already, perhaps they have carried me to the treshold of my story, before the door that opens on my own story, that would surprise me, if it opens, it will be I, it will be the silence, where I am, I dont't know, I'll never know, in the silence you don't know, you must go on, I can't go on, I'll go on'. (1957:372-382).

And then once again: Virginia Woolf.

`I begin now to forget; I have lost in the process that thin hard shell which cases the soul, which, in youth, shuts one in. And now I ask: who am I? Am I one and disticnt. There is no division between me and them. As I talked I felt I am you. This identity we so feverishly cherish, was overcome. (...)
`I have to recall things gone far, gone deep, sunk into this life and become part of it; dreams too, things surrounding me, and the inmates, those half-articulated ghosts who keep up their hauntings by day and night; who turn over in their sleep, who utter their confused cries, who put out their phantom fingers and clutch at me as I try to escape - shadwos of people one might have been; unborn selves. (...)
`I need a little language such as lovers use. I need a howl, a cry. When the storm crosses the marsh and sweeps over me where I lie in the ditch unregarded I need no words. Nothing neat. Nothing that comes down with all its feet on the floor. I have done with phrases. How much better is silence. Do not come and worry me with your hints that it is time to shut the shop and be gone. I would willingly give all my monney that you should not disturb me but will me sit on and on, silent, alone.'
`The canopy of civilization is burnt out. The sky is dark as polished whalebone. But there is a sense of the break of the day. Dawn is some sort of renawal. The film of mist thickens on the fields. A redness gathers on the roses, even on the pale rose that hangs by the bedroom window. A bird chirps. Cottages light their early candles. Yes, this is the eternal renewal, the incessant rise and fall and fall and rise again. And in me to the wave rises. I am aware once more of new desire.'